I am not the type to wait for one day of the year to express my gratitude; however, out of the blue, I started to write, I mean, 2020 has been a funny year, so why not make the exception. Before I begin, I think I should warn you; the list you will read below is not going to be your usual list of things I am grateful for. The Good & The Bad—I am still grateful. I am speaking my truth, and there are some trigger points, drugs and sexual abuse.
Have you ever been in a position where there are things that trigger you? A smell, a taste, the sound of someone’s voice or a sound? I have so many triggers; the littlest things can trigger memories, pains and feelings. There are some days where I can smell something, and a wave of depression takes hold of me. I’m sure the thought right now is, why would a healthy female have triggers like that, what could have caused it?
2020 has given us many obstacles saturated with life lessons; however, for the most part, most of us question ‘why me’ instead of asking ‘why not me’. The truth is, we all require a much-needed attitude adjustment every now and then. We tend to feel as if our problems are an isolated incident or personal attack—as if the rain cloud is only ever over our head. It is easy to disregard our own negative tendencies when our plates are overflowing, life is hectic, and time seems to be on the decline instead of the rise. Life happens to all of us—there is no escaping that.
Life’s seesaw propels us off the ground and allows us to oversee the playground of life; in the blink of an eye, we are down on the ground, and the next, we are up enjoying the high. It is important to know that the highs and lows of life are not always easy to adjust between; if you are anything like me, you know, a human being, then at least one point in your life you have secretly wished that you could be hidden and protected from the world by an invisible cloak like Harry Potter, but it just doesn’t work like that in the real world.
Ok, so how many times do we hear people say “it is ok not to be ok”—frequently, right? The thing is, many people will religiously recite this very encouraging statement, and then judge you for doing so. I know right, hypocritical.Unfortunately, there will always be people who will not understand and of course, those that will judge you. You have no power over them so try not to take it on. Your life is yours.
Sometimes you have to be Jimmy and be willing and strong enough to 8 Mile yourself. People will always feel like their lives are somehow better than yours because of the whispers and rumours they have heard about yours. They compare and analyse the two and immediately rate themselves above you because of the hurdles and trials that you have endured.Never be afraid to show that you’re human.
Success is yet another word with various interpretations and meanings to all of us, yet somehow,…
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“All through my life, I have been tested. My will has been tested, my courage has been tested, my strength has been tested. Now my patience and endurance are being tested.”
Although life has no option to actually restart the day, week, month or year over like we can to our favourite song or movie, we still have the power to hit the reset button. Starting over fresh doesn’t confirm that you failed, it merely shows that you have reached a point of realisation where you realised that it is time to start over fresh.
Ctrl. Alt. Delete.
A placement holder until they find the “one”. A placebo, disguising itself as the real thing—situationship.
All the signs are there, staring you in the face; you know what you are in. Yearning and wanting more, knowing in your heart that they cannot give you what you want and need, yet still, you stay.